Have you noticed that there is always a moment of revelation in a movie where the antagonist suddenly has an epiphany. The young man realized whom he really loves, the detective realizes who the killer is, the girl changes her ways, and we all live happily ever after. A moment when life just suddenly seems to make sense. Unfortunately, that’s the movies, and life is anything but that. I believe we all have our moments when we suddenly see things for what they are, but I think it’s not a “life changing” moment, but it’s in fact a moment when you make a choice of how to react to life in general. I think that at one point in our life we are given a choice. It’s not a physical choice like picking turkey over ham or something as equally ridiculous, but in stead things like religion, things like beliefs and things like reactions. Some will have little bearing on you, while others will continue to haunt you for the rest of your life with no regards to if the thought or reaction was in good faith or not.
It’s that moment when you turn seven and you realize that you are going to die one day and in some desperate attempt to quell the feeling of unease, you rush in to your parents to hide from the ugly truth that is life.
Or that moment when you scream and yell at a family member and watch them walk away, and then realize that you couldn’t care less.
Or that moment when you didn’t study well enough for that big test and you realize that you actually made a conscious choice not to do so.
Now, if this were a movie, you would just wake up one morning, see what you have done wrong, and rise up to the challenge and change, because that’s the proper thing to do.
However, life is not an epiphany or some fantastic chess game where the player suddenly gets an overview of his or her chess pieces.
No, it is in fact what you do with the information you get that is the change. When you wake up and realize that you will die at some point, do you ignore it and try to repress the thought in your everyday life? Do you turn to God in the hope that the emptiness you felt that night does not mean that your existence is also empty? Perhaps do you acknowledge the fact and realize that yes, you will die and you will cease to exist, but the difference you can make is that you make sure that you live to your fullest, that your family knows how much you love them every day, every hour, every minute, and every second?
It’s up to you what you feel will solve the problem.
What I am essentially trying to say is that I woke up at two in the morning today and realized that I needed to tell my mother on the other side of the world how much I love her.
The end.




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